In a follow up to this I was accepted into culinary school yesterday. I still don't presume it will be easy and I know that many in this field have a good 10-12 years on me. But I know if I don't do it I'll feel even worse.
I hope to never have to cook a meal like this.
Following your bliss is one of many overused phrases that I've just started to look past the cliche to see the truth in.
It seems to me sometimes that the points I make here are such simple ones that they almost don't need writing about but after complicating everything for years simple is the hardest thing for me to be and my journey towards a purer appreciation of the universe is an important one.